Sherlock stands on the edge. Waiting.
Below him, people and buses and pigeons pass by, not knowing or caring what events this day holds for the man above. Hear that? That's the sound of life, Sherlock. JM
Not for him. He feels as if his heartbeat has stopped already, his lungs ceasing to function. His mind races, the damned machine not ready to quit today. He wonders if it ever will be, if anything could cause its surrender.
It has all gone by too fast. The revelation, the planning, the deceptions, the plot twist. Moriarty's blood is on the soles of his shoes and he's standing on the edge and there's not enough time, minutes slip
Do you remember me?
Do you remember how my tears fell into the snow that day, as you stared at me, at a loss for words? Do you remember what I shouted at you?
I watch you every day, but I can never tell.
Did I make a mark on you at all? Did my last act change you inside? These are the questions I ask you as you sit for a moment next to the weathered gray stone. But I know you cannot hear me anymore.
Why do you come here? Why even bother? Everyone else has left. They've moved on, away from this place. But you, you haven't left me. And so I wonder: do you truly remember?
I know that you cried that cold winter day too. And on another day, n
Every day,
glancing over to his side of the room,
I am mystified
and intrigued.
He's not like the rest of us.
He smiles, laughs, stares
but not like us,
not fake at all.
No, we're not always pretenders
but he is never one.
His joy is always real,
and it fascinates me.
How has he escaped it,
the horror within the rest of our minds?
Fury.
Hatred.
Slicing through me
sharper than any knife.
I want to escape him,
the liar.
He took my heart,
ripped it apart
a million tiny pieces of paper
and thrust it back in my face
carelessly.
Is this some game?
How dare he
hurt me like this.
Anger.
Crashing down on me.
Blinding my eyes,
turning everything to red.
He should be ashamed,
but he feels nothing.
He doesn't even see
what he did to me,
what he did to my friend.
Insanity.
That's what this is.
I want to punch him,
to scream at him,
but it won't work.
I already tried screaming.
He is deaf to my cries.
Agonizing.
I hate this,
how I can't hate him.
how
1:19 AM.
Tuesday.
Waiting.
I don't want to sleep.
I just want
to type softly
listen to music that tears me apart and heals me all at once
understand what you mean.
What is forever?
A length
that can only be guessed at,
not worth pursuing.
Why worry about eternity?
It cannot be measured,
in minutes or in twilights.
It does not come
to us humans.
So why?
You tell me that it can be real
for us,
just the two of us.
But my lips are reluctant,
my hands do not believe.
This will not last.
Seconds, days,
soon they will be gone
from us.
We will be gone.
Us
and me
and you.
But,
you say,
why not try?
You whisper of sunl
Tears fall
soft drops of hatred
as I realize
what
I've
done.
Hurt.
Betrayal.
Failure.
Why?
How could I
think
it was a good idea?
I
hate
myself
for causing you pain.
No,
it's not okay.
Don't ever say that.
I hurt you
and it was
so stupid
to think otherwise.
Look around
take out the knives.
Drive them
into this
repulsive skin.
I want
to
hurt.
An apology
and a punishment.
Not.
Deep.
Enough.
I want to bleed.
Can you see
how sorry I am?
No,
not an excuse.
It's not okay.
Just shut up
and let me
feel this pain.
Friendship
never lasts.
I always manage
to screw it up
before too long.
I,
Funny, isn't it,
how so many things happen,
so many things shape us,
but we only focus
on the best and worst and strangest.
Nobody stops
and breathes
and marvels about tying a shoe
on a gray Tuesday.
They sing about love
or write about pain
and marvel at the orange-pink sunset.
But nobody waits
and ponders their lips
and why they bite them.
Nobody studies
a grain of sand on their ankle.
Maybe on that gray Tuesday,
someone's shoe becomes untied
and they stop walking to bend down.
And that little delay
lets someone else catch up to them.
What happens then,
with those two?
Anything could.
But years later,
someone will
i don't even know asdfghsd by rainy-october, literature
Literature
i don't even know asdfghsd
She is, above all, human. Everything else is always changing and fading and swirling around, but it is certain that she is human.
She used to be happy. Bright. The girl who left flowers on doorsteps and read books and held hands. They called her May.
She used to have a boyfriend, a cat, a bicycle.
She used to dance, whirling around in the snow.
She used to walk home backwards on Fridays.
Used to.
She is dark. Angry. The girl who wears scars on her arms like bracelets and dyes her hair red and carried a leather-bound notebook everywhere. She tells people that her name is now November.
She has a scar across her face, an empty bed at home
the ocean and the wings by rainy-october, literature
Literature
the ocean and the wings
stars falling,
your words give me breath.
sharp as a blade
yet without the sting of iron.
this is what i want -
to be set free,
a leaf released in autumn
falling
falling
yet drifting
softly
softly.
you are the ocean,
i am the sand.
pulling me always closer
but not too tightly
salty fingers at my throat.
giving me a taste
of that violet sunset
and inky forest
forever in your dreams.
and i rise,
grow wings and soar away
then back to you
falling
falling
yet drifting
softly
softly
back to shore.
What does it matter
if it's black or white?
You're always gonna need
someone to fight
For you
And your dreams
And your silly little wrecking games
What if
someone
like you just came and tore your heart apart?
Apart?
Apart?
What if someone just ripped your heart apart?
Sherlock stands on the edge. Waiting.
Below him, people and buses and pigeons pass by, not knowing or caring what events this day holds for the man above. Hear that? That's the sound of life, Sherlock. JM
Not for him. He feels as if his heartbeat has stopped already, his lungs ceasing to function. His mind races, the damned machine not ready to quit today. He wonders if it ever will be, if anything could cause its surrender.
It has all gone by too fast. The revelation, the planning, the deceptions, the plot twist. Moriarty's blood is on the soles of his shoes and he's standing on the edge and there's not enough time, minutes slip
Do you remember me?
Do you remember how my tears fell into the snow that day, as you stared at me, at a loss for words? Do you remember what I shouted at you?
I watch you every day, but I can never tell.
Did I make a mark on you at all? Did my last act change you inside? These are the questions I ask you as you sit for a moment next to the weathered gray stone. But I know you cannot hear me anymore.
Why do you come here? Why even bother? Everyone else has left. They've moved on, away from this place. But you, you haven't left me. And so I wonder: do you truly remember?
I know that you cried that cold winter day too. And on another day, n
Every day,
glancing over to his side of the room,
I am mystified
and intrigued.
He's not like the rest of us.
He smiles, laughs, stares
but not like us,
not fake at all.
No, we're not always pretenders
but he is never one.
His joy is always real,
and it fascinates me.
How has he escaped it,
the horror within the rest of our minds?
Fury.
Hatred.
Slicing through me
sharper than any knife.
I want to escape him,
the liar.
He took my heart,
ripped it apart
a million tiny pieces of paper
and thrust it back in my face
carelessly.
Is this some game?
How dare he
hurt me like this.
Anger.
Crashing down on me.
Blinding my eyes,
turning everything to red.
He should be ashamed,
but he feels nothing.
He doesn't even see
what he did to me,
what he did to my friend.
Insanity.
That's what this is.
I want to punch him,
to scream at him,
but it won't work.
I already tried screaming.
He is deaf to my cries.
Agonizing.
I hate this,
how I can't hate him.
how
1:19 AM.
Tuesday.
Waiting.
I don't want to sleep.
I just want
to type softly
listen to music that tears me apart and heals me all at once
understand what you mean.
What is forever?
A length
that can only be guessed at,
not worth pursuing.
Why worry about eternity?
It cannot be measured,
in minutes or in twilights.
It does not come
to us humans.
So why?
You tell me that it can be real
for us,
just the two of us.
But my lips are reluctant,
my hands do not believe.
This will not last.
Seconds, days,
soon they will be gone
from us.
We will be gone.
Us
and me
and you.
But,
you say,
why not try?
You whisper of sunl
Tears fall
soft drops of hatred
as I realize
what
I've
done.
Hurt.
Betrayal.
Failure.
Why?
How could I
think
it was a good idea?
I
hate
myself
for causing you pain.
No,
it's not okay.
Don't ever say that.
I hurt you
and it was
so stupid
to think otherwise.
Look around
take out the knives.
Drive them
into this
repulsive skin.
I want
to
hurt.
An apology
and a punishment.
Not.
Deep.
Enough.
I want to bleed.
Can you see
how sorry I am?
No,
not an excuse.
It's not okay.
Just shut up
and let me
feel this pain.
Friendship
never lasts.
I always manage
to screw it up
before too long.
I,
Funny, isn't it,
how so many things happen,
so many things shape us,
but we only focus
on the best and worst and strangest.
Nobody stops
and breathes
and marvels about tying a shoe
on a gray Tuesday.
They sing about love
or write about pain
and marvel at the orange-pink sunset.
But nobody waits
and ponders their lips
and why they bite them.
Nobody studies
a grain of sand on their ankle.
Maybe on that gray Tuesday,
someone's shoe becomes untied
and they stop walking to bend down.
And that little delay
lets someone else catch up to them.
What happens then,
with those two?
Anything could.
But years later,
someone will
i don't even know asdfghsd by rainy-october, literature
Literature
i don't even know asdfghsd
She is, above all, human. Everything else is always changing and fading and swirling around, but it is certain that she is human.
She used to be happy. Bright. The girl who left flowers on doorsteps and read books and held hands. They called her May.
She used to have a boyfriend, a cat, a bicycle.
She used to dance, whirling around in the snow.
She used to walk home backwards on Fridays.
Used to.
She is dark. Angry. The girl who wears scars on her arms like bracelets and dyes her hair red and carried a leather-bound notebook everywhere. She tells people that her name is now November.
She has a scar across her face, an empty bed at home
the ocean and the wings by rainy-october, literature
Literature
the ocean and the wings
stars falling,
your words give me breath.
sharp as a blade
yet without the sting of iron.
this is what i want -
to be set free,
a leaf released in autumn
falling
falling
yet drifting
softly
softly.
you are the ocean,
i am the sand.
pulling me always closer
but not too tightly
salty fingers at my throat.
giving me a taste
of that violet sunset
and inky forest
forever in your dreams.
and i rise,
grow wings and soar away
then back to you
falling
falling
yet drifting
softly
softly
back to shore.
What does it matter
if it's black or white?
You're always gonna need
someone to fight
For you
And your dreams
And your silly little wrecking games
What if
someone
like you just came and tore your heart apart?
Apart?
Apart?
What if someone just ripped your heart apart?
A single tear, like a sparkle of morning dew
a drop of the sky's soul running down her hallow cheek
Pictures flash like strobe lights through her mind
Memeriories of the innocent young girl she once knew
She runs her hands through her thinning hair
She is much, mcuh too young to be so very old
Foreign words and tales occupy her life
She lives in the past, ever wishing she could return there
Every night, she entwines herself in the days lies
trying to forget the hurt that has been done unto her
yet the scars that have formed refuse to heal
so she merely tries to ignore the peircing pain inside
She weaves a quilt fromt he many tears
Will you remember me? That one girl
Who always stood out in the crowd?
The one that was a bit too showy,
A bit too loud?
The one that would always blend in
Or always stand out?
Will you remember me? That one kid
You met in middle school?
The one who didn't care
About her hair?
The girl that
Was so beautiful and yet hid behind the curtain?
Will you remember me? The fenominal girl
With the amazing voice?
Amazing writing?
Amazing acting?
Will you remember me? The athlete
That could run as fast as the wind?
Jump into the sky
So high
That I touch the stars?
Will you remember that girl?
The one nobody cared about?
The one who
I see them.
In the shadows, they reside
Meer tricks played by the light?
Ah, but alas, the dreams!
I does not explain the dreams.
Please, my dear, do not call me crazy-
For I have merely gone mad.
Please, my dear, don't go wasting
Any of these words I share with you.
I still see them.
Now even in the suns rays.
No matter where I stand, sit, or lay
They follow close behind.
I don't know where to run to
When I can't escape my fate.
But I think I finally understand,
I'll have to face it one day.
I still have them.
Prophecies in my sleep.
Anytime I see someone,
I fear it will come true.
Lately they have gotten worse,
And due
Hey you, yes, you. Yes the one sitting here and putting your eyes over this sentence and pondering whether or not this is a trick even though you keep reading anyway. Hi, I'm glad you could stop by. You probably don't know me, and if you do, well, good! There's a start. But now, this is for you, reader, whoever you may be.
Have you ever felt like you're nothing? Have you ever felt like you want to just get away, or to cry? Have you ever self harmed, or have you ever wished you were dead? If you have, well, I could tell you it was wrong, but you already know that right? My point of writing here isn't to preach, it's to tell. So keep reading,
i am responsible for you, all of you *points* all of my friends *points again*
i dont care if you say that you dont want to bother me with your problems, or if you dont feel like you can talk to them with me.
but you can. because i am responsible for you, and i care
you! *points again* will be happy, some where, some way, even if it has NOTHING to do with me, you WILL be happy.
if any one hurts you, whether it be a family member, friend, or boyfriend, there will be SOME way to cheer you up.
i know, most of the time, i have nothing to say to you, i cant lend you advice to make every thing better most of the time, all i can do is let you
Unwinding My Misery by CamiSchizoidAndroid, literature
Literature
Unwinding My Misery
Set off to be alone
To satisfy my need to feed off lonely souls
I'm going to die alone
With my broken heart and soul surrounding me
And I'm betting that I wont surface
From this sea of misery
The guilt I'm going to have to face
Is beckoning me
Set off to live my life
Without a doubt that my mind's been lost
Persona of a loner
I've got as much scrambled brains as a drunken stoner
You'd better back off soon or you'll see-
Just how much my heart can hold mercy
From this cage, there's no way to be free
So please just leave me be
I'm going to hold your ground
But there's no way out
Here where I've drowned, been unwound
Where I'v
~this is an excerpt from my new novel, currently at a length of half a page. just feel like posting it because reasons~
"It's fascinating and kind of sad – there are so many people and the earth is always spinning and there is always work being done somewhere so that there will never, ever be even half a second when the entire world is silent. No matter what happens, there will always be human noise. For how long has this fact been true, I wonder? And would it ever be possible to make that happen again, in this state? What exactly would have to occur in order to get that quiet second where everyone just breathes in?
I add this to my me